this rain

this rain
damp
as my decision
falls
gently over the inadequacey
blurred by
his touch

puddles of sleep
flood dreams
of hot sun and
kindred spark
while tired eyes
sink helpless
without compromise

clouds of grey
on which
I rest my weighted body
shade
sweltering emotion
now swollen where
tears repose

the cold shock
of this rain
defining and final
shatter
the umbrella of time
exposing the vulnerability
of my confidence

decisions float
on circumstance
while complacency
navigates
my soul

his indifference

and this rain

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