it was one of those weekends. it was sad and rainy. i had a lot of time alone to think about life and what i'm doing, what i want. it was absolutely horrible to confront some of those issues that have been burning holes in my heart, but it had to be done. i'm praying that things work out for the best. in time, i guess we'll find out. this is one of those periods where i just have to be strong and stay focused. i'm praying the sun comes out soon to help me.